Real Girl - Mutya Buena

So I guess most of everybody probably would have heard one another's results. I wouldn't say 16 is terribly horrendous, but having to fail Math, it's probably one of the most dire cases which I, for one, obviously hoped didn't happen.

Who cares if people think I'm being a drama queen and still crying even if I got 16. I guess it's the agony I felt when I realized I probably almost met my targets for the majority of the papers. Humanities aside, although I was looking at a B3, got a B4 instead. The rest of the results were acceptable and I was most satisfied with Chinese and Sciences. F&N was a delight. English was alright too I guess. Everything is alright as of this moment because there's so much more that I want.

Crying at the hall is because I, seriously thought I couldn't get into any Polytechnic courses, 'cus I once heard someone said that failing Math means you cannot enter any course in Polytechnic.

Whatever the case, I'm eligible for the courses that I take interest in. *Thank God* Having to fret over courses that I like, in comparism to courses that I'm not interested in, is a whole lot better.

The Momo thinks that I did very well and that this set of results have been the best so far. If she thinks it's okay, I think it should be fine. I'm still annoyed by the fact that I failed Math, when it is so paramount when it concerns Polytechnic education. Big mega huge sigh. Math is so important.. but I somehow, can never grasp the concept.

Meanwhile, I got to make my decisions quick, dragging it on will make everything seem like a huge blur. Still trapped in the bubble where everything is thrown in my direction, bouncing off the walls and hitting me back again and again...

Uncertainty is seriously draining every inch of happiness from me. There's always a fine line between every choice, then there's waiting and hoping, alongside with empty promises of working harder the next time round, hence hoping someone out there will give me that one chance.

Then it's back to hoping and waiting all over again.

Hope is too big of a word. I want, and not hope to want.
All that's left to do is do be decisive and accept what I have in front of me now. Pieces of paper strewn everywhere and random clippings of course details. Maybe it's time to get myself organized. Room, thoughts, wants. Everything straightened out once and for all.

To my friends, let's hope to see everyone of us enjoying what we do, and screaming for joy when we receive our school postings. What's done been done, 加油吧， 别气馁，再辛苦一点点而已。

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