The 4th and the last term ends next Friday, 3rd October. How do I feel? Elated, overjoyed? It's a huge concoction of reactions that I can't put my finger on and decide. HSS days started off fun.  Really fun, it was quite overwhelming to change from a school like Nanyang Primary School to HSS in a span of a few months. There was a lot of Chinese speaking kids going around, was kind of awkward to converse in Mandarin. Hmm.

First day was when my dad dropped me off with his then new RAV4 with a new paint job and I left my transparent Nike water bottle in the car, then Ben called out and I scurried back to get it. Random enough but I remember it quite clearly.

Moving on, I think I screwed up quite badly for my lower secondary years. I don’t even recalling mugging for any exams for the heck of it. Seriously, can’t say I regret my decisions because it’s over. I had some really devoted teachers that I’ve known since the first days of school. Mdm Khong’s pretty cool, the way she criticizes people is just some talent that God decides to give her and I like the way she can relate to our mindsets.

Then there’s Ms David, Ms Yanti, Ms Toh, Mr Teo, Mr George, Mdm Salbiah, Mr Thiru. The list goes on and on. Ironically, the more I screwed up, the more the relationship between my teachers and I grew. It actually got better. Hahah, I’ve already accepted the, “If you can’t lead, you can only follow” rule if you’re in school. The people who are in authority are the ones in authority and nothing can actually change that lil’ wee bit of fact. As much as students hate it, they’d still have to abide to rules, if not, you get out. Without a certificate.

I don’t know what the fuck you can do with a PSLE certificate.

Moving on, I’d miss HSS. Yes, I’d definitely miss this place. I’ll miss the teachers and some friendships forged. I’m actually happy to leave it because of some of the people in this school as well. I’ve pretty much seen enough hypocrites that can last me 5 years. Then again, more to come, not to worry.

I’ll never miss the routine in school. Arrive, take keys, sign in, wait for 10:45, eat and talk, move up to class and wait for 2:15. Finish school and scoot over to get some bubble tea or head over to Subway/Koufu for lunch. Head home, do work, sleep, repeat x 365 days. I am more than glad to leave the routine, just for a little while.

Some really good friends I’ve met along the way? In no particular order but, YK, the one whom I’ve known since the 1^st year, he’s one of those guy friends who takes good care of me. Jeremy and BK, from 1^st year as well, although he’s annoying but he’s a nice guy that you can rely on if you just need to rant to someone. Then there’s Pamela and ChunHui, although I’ve only grown closer to them recently, it’s another special friendship that I’d hold close to my black heart (I’m very heartless one). Gerald and Benedict are the few who I’ll laugh with all the time. Gilbert, Kaixin, Yingeh and Chun Quan are friends that I’ll never forget as well, thanks, you guys.

There’s so many more but I can’t list all of them out. I’d crash the server or something.

Then there’s Elizebeth Megan Wong Xiao Wen and Alicia Tan Ying Ying,2 girlfriends in a clique that pwns the other cliques instantly. I’ll probably still remember them even if I just woke up from a 10 year long coma *choy*. I don’t know how in the flipping blue hell we managed to be such great girlfriends. We’re so hostile to one another and it just makes me smile from my heart when I know they’re such frikkin bitches. We’ve dreamt big dreams together and will continue to do so. From a stranger’s point of view, we’re all aloof and we just want to get rid of one another asap, there’s just too much death staring going on. We don’t need a huge horde of people in our clique. We just hostile one another can already.

You know, to heck to what people have to say about one another in front of us. Rumors and gossips can only go that far. People can try all their might to tarnish me or my reputation, but, I can’t be bothered.  As cliché as it sounds, I am who I am and nothing can actually change that. It baffles me, how people can treat friends like that. There’s so much hating going on but on the surface everybody looks fine and dandy with little frangipanis in their right ear, oh please, for the love of God, just stop it already.

So, in a nutshell, I guess leaving school after 5 long arduous years is easy. Technological advancements makes it so much easier, thank you all Greek mythology Gods, Benjamin Franklin and random scientists for discovering Electricity. 

Meanwhile, mug hard friends, all the best for your GCE O’levels and work hard! See you guys at the finish line with a really good looking laminated certificate. 

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Welcome Lin Xi, here is your handwriting analysis.

 Lin uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone.

The circumstances when Lin does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise.

Lin will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally.

Lin is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"

 People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Lin doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

 Lin will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

 Diplomacy is one of Lin's best attributes. She has the ability to say what others want to hear. She can have tact with others. She has the ability to state things in such a way as to not offend someone else. Lin can disagree without being disagreeable.

 Lin is a cumulative and procedural thinker. She likes to have all the facts before making a decision. She thinks or creates much like a brick mason, stacking fact upon fact. Her thought pattern or the conclusion will not be complete until the last fact is in place. Like that brick wall, Lin learns faster through visual demonstration than through quick verbal instructions. Once she has learned new material, and understood it, she won't forget.

Lin is a methodical thinker, therefore she is able to build things and come up with new ideas. In an argument, she often loses to rapid thinking people because she is thinking thirty minutes later about what she should have said. These people often are very booksmart, but can be out-gunned in a rapid fire verbal debate.

She may learn new ideas at a slower pace than other "less detailed" people, but once she gets it, she can handle repetition. Some people hate jobs with too much repetition, she can handle it better than most.

 Lin is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Lin basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

 Lin is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

 Lin has a temper. She uses this as a defense mechanism when she doesn't understand how to handle a situation. Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around her.

 Something is incomplete in Lin's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Lin's sexual needs.

 For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Lin has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Lin fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Lin has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Lin seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Lin seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.