In My Room - SHINee

Labels: emo femo nemo, linxi speaks, shoppasluts

Back In Black - ACDC 

Labels: emo femo nemo, olevels D:, RP

Videotape - Radiohead 

Labels: ANE Camp, Boston, emo femo nemo

哭了 - 林宥嘉

Labels: barflies, christmas, emo femo nemo, lunches, shopping

Labels: barflies, cowboybar, emo femo nemo, friends, sick

Kitsune Tabloid Micromix - Digitalism 

Labels: barflies, emo femo nemo, leaving school, life, olevels D:

Giving It Away - Mae 

Labels: barflies, emo femo nemo, music

Alice Practice - Crystal Castles 

Labels: emo femo nemo, k9 kulture

Slide In (DFA Remix) - Goldfrapp 

Labels: emo femo nemo, whine, work

新不了情 - 黄小琥

Labels: barflies, emo femo nemo, friends, life, linxi speaks

Fade To Grey - Nouvelle Vague

Why do I feel so down most of the time? :(
Do you want to give me an answerrrrr?

Labels: emo femo nemo

如果没有你 - 莫文蔚

Long post ahead with really bad sentence structure, because I am sleepy.

There is actually nothing wrong with my Gmail account! Damnit, it's FF being anal, cannot sign into my Gmail at all. Switched over to IE and tadah ~ ! Shall blog in IE from now onwards.

Been thinking about many things, accepting critisicms, thinking about the future, planning for the future (wao, big thing) etc etc. Need to start on Humanities already, been revising a lot of Mathematics and Science. English? English, very important :( should start to go over to Ben's room to take some books. 1984 by George Orwell next! Because I read the title somewhere, don't know where. Library soon, chiaobin.

Was studying Chemistry just now and it was EXTREMELY warm tonight! Gah! Also handed in coursework part B today and I felt a rush of happiness through every inch of my body. Albeit feeling extremely worried about my work after leaving the room, Imanaged to eat some of the stuff I've been craving for. I should learn how to take chilli ...

It amazes me, how some people can morph into someone else (totally different) in the shortest span of time. Facades and superficiality on a daily basis. Maybe because I'm like reaaaalll lazy or what, but I find putting up a front and disguising yourself is like, really, draining. I cannot bring myself to change myself and intermingle with anybody I see. How tiresome is that .. wao.

After Dowagr mentioned about Hand Dermititis, I began to Google/Wiki it for damn long, reading reports after reports about it. I'm quite certain that I have acute contact hand dermititis, in a nutshell, my hand's a little allergic to everyday substances like detergent, shampoos, hair gels and sometimes even water. That really means, that I cannot be touching the stronger solvents and substances around the household :( No acids, no alkalis ... no water? Wtf? I love showering :( Momo's been trying to get a slot at National Skin Centre but the alimony shiet is taking up a lot of time and I really can't be bothered, well, unless the skin on my hands starts to crack and bleed or something.
*slaps on Crabtree's hand lotion*

I was shown blogs of girls who recently lost their loved ones, one of it belonged to a girl who lost her boyfriend, Clifton, due to NS training and another girl who lost her girlfriend in a fatal car accident.

Immediate reaction was to think of Wayne. Dearly departed, gone too fast, too soon. I hope you're doing well Handsum. I am glad and thankful for the fact that your passing on didn't hurt. I was watching you guys on YouTube during Mosiac Fest. I wish there were more shows of you and The Suns now ... Really miss you Wayne. I told you I'll come looking for you with my results. I'll also bring you to my favorite cafe.

Keep rockin', Mr. Thunder :)
xiaolongbao ! <3.

Labels: emo femo nemo, friends, life, olevels D:, schoolwork, wayne thunder, whine

On My Balcony - Flunk

All I wanna do
Is sit here on my balcony
And think about you and me
And how happy we could be

Here comes summer
Picking flowers in the early hours
Without a care in the world

Except perhaps for bees and birds

This is easily one of my all time favorite songs and every time I pick up my phone, this is the very first song that I'll listen to. Unless I'm in a weird mood, I'll listen to Heartbreaker by Teriyaki Boyz or No Diggity by Klaxons. Hurhur .

Because I feel really blue-ish/emo/walk in drizzle/feel floatish today, am gunna use blue. Texted Meaner for his Nike Plus run but he told me he didn't perform up to standard and he was like .. well, sad. How can anybody get a little sad from just running. Boys/men, I can never understand and them and vice versa.

Here I am, eating 蟹肉蛋炒饭 feeling cold, hugging my baby pillow, planning out what to study later. Pam couldn't make it for tuition tonight, think something happened to her relatives and her brothers aren't at home. Hope alls well.

Walked aimlessly around Bukit Panjang Plaza for a little while 'cause it was drizzling and I didn't feel like walking under the rain, am still sneezing from getting caught in the rain for the past few days. *urgh*. Went into the pet shop and realized their stuff are pretty over-priced. What's up with shops having over-priced stuff? Uncle tidbit's coffee mix is like $1.20? A drink in Kou Fu is easily $1.50. WHAT?! Doesn't even make sense, got to remind Elize the chiaobin and myself to bring our waterbottles. Everything is SO friggin' expensive.

I digress, saw a spiked red leather collar going at $49! DAMN, it was SO sexy, would've looked SOO good on Boston, but it's damn overpriced. EVEN THE PUPPIES WAS OVERPRICED MAN. Miniature maltese going at $1,349. People, just adopt.

I realize I take close to forever to finish my food. It takes me close to 20 minutes to finish a ham-cheese sandwich and 45 minutes to finish one ladle full of rice. Takes even longer to finish Botak Jone's meals ... *shoots self*

OH OH OH. I saw a cute guy at Bukit Panjang Starbies today, I think he caught me staring at this girl who had this REALLY weird looking and HUGE water bottle containing some form of orange liquid (assuming it's apple-carrot-orange juice) and yes, everybody knows I give the weirdest facial expressions .. but yah .. I think he saw me giving the really really "wtf?!" face at the girl who was burying her face in her A-Math textbook, scribbling dy dx shiets. I looked up at saw him staring. Veli cute.

School's been having like a lot of theft cases, Mr. Teo Y.A being the new discipline master and what not, he's been really busy AND on top of that, he's neglecting us! So here's shoutout to delinquents in school ...


Stop wasting our time. If you REALLYREALLY need your tabacco fix, just drop school and smoke till your lungs degrades into nothingness. If you reallyreally find stealing phones/money/valuables thrilling, exciting and rewarding. Just I don't know, do whatever you want. Stop wasting our time and the teachers' time, it is SO annoying.

I bet none of you people ever searched for the meaning of school in the dictionary.

school1 Audio Help /skul/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[skool] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun

1.	an institution where instruction is given, esp. to persons under college age: The children are at school.

2.an institution for instruction in a particular skill or field.

AND ?! I was REALLY pissed beyond words when I realized Mr. Teo couldn't teach us this afternoon, not at him, but at the people who made him do such laborious jobs. Statements, running up and down school, looking for people. We don't need another Mas-Selemat fiasco in school, catching people who keeps hiding.

I mean siruzly, if you're THAT desperate for money, please head over to the H.O.D and look for Mr. Thiru, he is this tall guy who smiles a lot and ask for financial assistance. National exams are approximately 50 days away, can't these people just tahan for another 50 odd days and I wouldn't give two flying fucks if they want to murder and kill. Let's see, 4/5 years in school and you reallyreally have to screw up the very last year AND at the same time, cause students in school to be wary of their surroundings?

Now, whever we leave the class for other lessons. We need to bring down all our valuables. Great, now they can even climb into the classrooms through the windows. Maybe we can't even bring them out in the future, they might just be snatch theives and snatch our belongings away from us and make a dash for the school gate. *rolls eye* Man, I mean, is it me? or am I just being super anal for the right reasons. URGH .

This post has mysteriously amplified into a full-fledge ranting post! COOL BEANS.

Family seperations are so insanely annoying. It's all about money, assets, money, assets, money, assets oh and .. money. MAN and I have to be dragged into it because, I use money also ma. Endless e-mails and conversations over topics that have been discussed incalculable times, but they all have one common answer. "I don't know". Maybe that's cause why these conversations never seem to end. I don't like telling people the things they expect to hear, I think I'm real selfish, but hey, who cares. I can do whatever I want! *snobface*

I'm getting extremely impatient over trivial issues. Whenever someone posts me with a stupid question, all I can think of is how many times I can stab his/her face till I can't see an inch of skin.
:)

Tata.

If you read till the end, I love you!
really.
hugs and kisses for you.

Labels: ANNOYING, emo femo nemo, meaner, rants, stupid people

Just Like Heaven - The Cure

WOAH! I had a really bad scare just now, because .. I couldn't sign into my Google account which is ultimately my Blogspot. I THOUGHT SOMEONE MANAGED TO HACK MY ACCOUNT AGAIN . OMG .

But it's fixed :) DPL said something about clearing the cache (whatever that is) and restarting the com. Then SUDDENLY, my computer decide to run the disk checking shiet! Then I panicked AGAIN! 'Cause of the fact that I know shit about computers (I only can memorize specs) so I kept freaking out. Haha, but it's working. Phew. Need to use this piece of metal until I get a new laptop, hope it doesn't fail on me.

School today was tolerable, I keep drifting in and out of my day-dreams (when I'm not talking). Ms Siew was asking about various irrigation methods and Alvin said REALLY funny stuff that was REALLY lame but I couldn't stop laughing. LOL .
Rahim said to perform a rain dance. AND HE STARTED TO DANCE THE RAIN DANCE WITH his serious face !!!
OMG HAHHAHAAHAH IT WAS DAMN FUNNY.
Ms Siew was SOO tolerable to Alvin's jokes and she couldn't stop laughing. She was like laughing so badly that she said "perm-ission" :D She's probably like the only teacher who laughs with us. HURHUR.
Some classmates were saying stuff like "Pump pump pump then SHOOT out from TWO big boulders!!" accompanied with a HUGE grin. I think it was Jaron. The entire class was laughing and banging their tables .. uhhh .
Then when everybody managed to settle down Alvin burst out with another phrase,
"YOU LIKE IT BIIIIIGGG?" . Another round of non-stop laughter. Gawd, and Ms Siew just went on to rip his hair out. LOL.

I have no idea how could they come up with stuff like that JUST from one word IRRIGATION.

Oh yah, must remember to thank CHUN HUI! because when I was sleeping, she was patting my back to make me sleep and it is DAMN sleepy kind of sleepy (DAMN PURPOSELY LOR) . She said she always pat her Xiang Xiang (nephew) to sleep and stuff like that. Then I tried to make her sleep .. Twas a sleepy day yesterday.

Momo gave me 2 new medicine to try out yesterday, to check if the kids will like it. One was Kiwi flavoured and one was Mixed Fruity Flavour. The Kiwi flavoured syrup tasted like Vodka and the Mixed Fruit Flavoured one tasted like a concoction of DIABOLICAL SHIET. Told Momo NOT to get these shiet for her kids.

I had a super long mental list of things-to-blog-about. BUT .. as usual, everything slipped off my mind and I've been thinking of things that usually don't bother me. Money .. education .. future .. family etc etc. I've never ever worried for aforementioned but now? I CANNOT stop thinking of the future. Bah ..

I'm abstaining from RedBull because it's harmful. Shared one can with ChiaoBin Elizebeth Megan Wong today! I hope school doesn't sell the blue and silver one, if not I'll really drink a lot of RedBull.
I hope I can eat Botak Jones with YK later ..
sudden outburst craving for Botak's food!

I JUST SAW THIS FROM PAMELA'S BLOG.

I SKIPPED DETENTION TODAY - AGAIN .
I think we are taking advantage of Mrs Peng leh .
Very bad ! all linxi's fault lor . LOL :X ~
what a bad chairman . :P

WHHHAAAAT IT'S MY FAULTTTT ?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!
*MEGA HORROR FACE*

Labels: emo femo nemo, food, schoolwork

How 6 Songs Collide - Norwegian Recycling



BOSTON IS SO CUTE AND INNOCENT LAH :( WHY LIDDAT ?!

My babylove Boston bit someone today .. and that someone is Momo. I felt like the worst shiet on planet earth/mars/jupiter/whatever for the entire day.

So some faggots decided to leave food on the ground and Boston decided to grab it (but he wouldn't eat it) he will just hold it in his mouth and parade it around and be super haolian. Albeit telling Momo NOT to grab his muzzle and forcefully remove stuff from his mouth (countless of times in fact), she still did it (because Momo doesn't want Boston to eat whatever's in his mouth). Then Boston bit her .. :( Momo had to get some jab to ease the pain and I still don't dare to look at the wound cause I am afraid of shiet like that.

Boston was clearly in shock (someone tell me why?) and he hasn't eaten anything, not even cheese and chicken and whatever I feed him. He has been hiding underneath the coffee table and comes out once in awhile to kick his tennis balls around but will still stay underneath the coffee table for quite sometime.

Boston bit someone :( I feel like the worst owner on earth and Momo keeps insisting that it's not my fault. Gah .. totally reminds me of the super scary Bailey who snaps at anybody who attempts to touch her collar. *shudder*.

Need to do something about Boston being aggresive when it comes to taking things from him. I am soo confused over nothing. I used to be a dog handler! I should know how to handle dogs what?! Although not professionally .. but .. AHHH ?! I think I'm going to muzzle Boston when he goes out for his runs .. but I don't want to let people think that Boston is dangerous because he is not. He loves kids and soccer balls .. walau why must people stereotype dogs. As if stereotyping humans are not enough. BOSTON VERY SCARY MEH WHY MUST ALWAYS GIVE ME JIAO BIN WHEN YOU SEE BOSTON IN THE LIFT WHEN HE IS SITTING DOWN IN THE CORNER NOT DOING ANYTHING .

AND I XUCKING HATE PEOPLE WHO THINK THAT THEIR PEDIGREE DOGS ARE LIKE GOD-LIKED.

I . LOVE . MY . STRAY . DOG .


F&N practical exam tomorrow afternoon. I'm gonna bake 24 cupcakes (butter, margarine, pastry margarine and ghee) and carry out an experiment. It'd last still 6pm max, need to drink RedBull tomorrow!
Oraight, going back to the books now!

Eh balls, I want to eat at Food Court again. Let's abstain from Subway :D

Ciao bellas.

Labels: Boston, emo femo nemo

- long emo ranting post ahead, skip if you don't love me-

Time is running out, I so wish that I have the ability to freeze time. Or have the ability to delete things away like how you can delete your Plurks. Because I always do things that I regret .. I think it's affecting me a lot, like, a whole new level of affecting. If that even makes sense that is.

Come to think of it, families eat dinner together, go fishing together, take pictures together in Botanic Garden (don't ask me why, it's just a family place). Sit in their little family car together, eat together, drink together, laugh over trivial matters, have vacations together. Wait for dad to come home together. Cut birthday cakes together.
Great, my family's all about politics, money and we converse through letters and emails and a guy in his 2 piece suit with his secretary. If you just labeled me as a little emo kid ranting about her dysfunctional family, this is a big F you to you.

I don't think I can work under pressure, but I NEED to work under pressure. Somehow or rather, I need to curb this. I have absolutely no idea why I've been thinking a lot (yes, I friggin admit that I don't usually exercize my brain -_-). I've been thinking of worst case scenarios if I happen to flunk badly for O'Levels (though quite impossible if I continue to mug). Still, I've got times when I just space out and wonder what the heck am I doing with my life, I'm not under-achieving, I'm not achieveing a lot and I don't really know what I really want (k I really want a lavish lifestyle and an ever expanding bank account to support it) bah, I can see you rolling your eyes already. Many a times, I really really feel like a directional-retard speck of dust. Really, just a speck of dust.

I think the fever has gotten to my brains and fried it as well. Though I am feeling like crap and I can't do anything productive, I tried very hard to plant my arse down to do some planning .. that was until Mr. JayWalk told me about his old podcasts and I laughed like siao whilst listening to it albeit having hunger pangs. Gah, I don't want to regret my decisions. Hell, I also don't want to bother people with my incessant questioning (which usually makes no sense at all), I dislike being a burden. But I'm so indecisive and scatter-brain at the same time and because of the fact that I'm SUCH an indecisive and scatter-brain person .. I think that I need some help from my friends at times, like reminding me this and that and what not ; and yet, I do not like to depend on others. Oh, the irony of being me.

I really don't know what I want. But I do know what I will get in return if I put in effort! ie. Year end shopping craze at HK with momo (I really hope this comes true, lemme tell ya, 5 days in HK is enough for me,I think ... I shop around the clock, non stop) and ultimately, results. Nothing beats good results, I think. *lets out a mega huge sigh* But no work no results. Gah ..

I wish that the uncles downstairs will STOP laughing like mad cows, damn annoying. Just barbeque your darn food and shutehellup .

OHWELL, gotta pick myself up soon, eat shitloads of Vitamin C. Long busy and hectic week ahead .. Oh boy, all the medicine been making my hands quiver like mad.

Labels: emo femo nemo

Sigur Rós - Sigur Rós


Wao. Had a really really really really heavy lunch at PastaMania this afternoon with ErJie. We were bitching and talking and .. bitching and talking lor. Came home, grabbed sleep and did English. Gonna start on Math soon, hopefully I don't feel sleepy.

My upper lip has a cut and .. I don't know HOW to start on Coursework Part B. Timbre with the Barflies on Saturday, celebrating YuNz and Cool's birthday I think.

Anxiety/kanchiong/panic/pent up stressed, I really hope you don't come back for me again. Huge gigantic tsunamis of Emonemofemo (I like to name my feelings) strikes me at very random times of the day :/. Being a complete idiot with Elize usually helps, whilst eating rice very very slowly. We're so retardedly retarded that it's funny.

O'levels is so arduous a toil. Been damn long since I sat down and studied for a long long time. Should've started early. O'levels prep work is just a mother long mug session!!

不要为失败找借口
只为成功找方法

谢谢 TSSD for the Justice album, you 石头, really. :bigmegahappyelatedface:

Labels: chinese, cowboybar, emo femo nemo, olevels D:, schoolwork

Ageless Beauty - Stars

Confessions

• Been listening to Stars, Guster, Kings of Convenience, Rachel Yamagata, The cure and Belle and Sebastian. I think I'm in need of silence.
  
  
• Thought that one of the teacher was extremely annoying and kb when I knew he was in our group. Before I left for my exam, he said, "Good Luck and God Bless!" .. "Never judge a book by it's cover" put into good use once more. Sigh, sorry Mr. XXX (I don't even know his surname) You're really cool, thanks for the words.
  
  
• Cursed at many people (in my heart) and hoped for the worst.
  
  
• Had the thought of murdering and castrating someone.
  
  
• Ate huge fluffy white marshmallows coated with rich white chocolate with almond and cashew!
  
  
• I know my incessant whining has elevated into God-liked state, am trying hard to adapt.
  
  
• Texted Meaner the entire day. Whose going to pay the bills?
  
  
• Had the thought of slapping the examiner because she couldn't stop twirling her hair/stroking her hair/touching her hair in front of my, no, EVERYBODY'S face and only I get to twirl my hair. Please for Pete's sake . ACT LIKE A DAMN TEACHER .How the hell am I going to respect you and answer in your face when you KEEP TWIRLING YOUR HAIR. It's a national exam, like, hello. Although it is of zero significance to you, BE PROFESSIONAL LAH WOMAN.
  
  
• Selective hearing also reaching enlightenment already.
  
  
• Too much homework, too little time.
  
  
• Don't feel like confessing already.
  

Labels: emo femo nemo, olevels D:, whine

L-O-V-E - Nat King Cole

I don't know.
I refuse to admit .
I refuse to accept .
I don't want to know .
I refuse to understand .
I hope I change me soon .
I don't want to make mistakes .
I don't like being in a difficult position .
I don't like it when it is unfair to me .
I don't like it when I get emo .
I don't know why I did .
I want to whine more .
I want breakfast .
I must change .
I am teh emo .

Labels: emo femo nemo, whine

Friday I'm In Love - The Cure

(cannot help it, got a tendency to leave my music on loop)
No idea why but, as my title suggests. A huge emo tsunami just struck me and yes, the aftermath is not veli nice. Don't read this if you don't like lengthy posts. (Hui! Long post hor, cannot read! Hurhur). Very /wristdrinkwhiskeyeatvalium kind of post.

Dear Lao Bei,
Few days back I read about Pam's update about her dad (see, I got mention you). I miss being Daddy's little girl. Although you haven't been around for God knows how many years. I still do have a littttttttle bit of sadness lingering around. Cannot help it what, can't be as heartless as I thought I am. Kor just randomly said that he probably seen you 5 or 6 times in 2 years. Then .. I should see you even lesser since kor always drives out to meet you.

I think the last time we had dinner together was 5 years ago? We had dinner at the Japanese super dark restaurant in Paragon and I think that was it. When we were young (read : 3 or 4) we always had dinner at Dragon City (龙城) at Copthorne Orchird almost every week and the manager saw Kor and I grow up. We stopped going because .. we just stopped. We used to had huge Japanese feasts at Prince Hotel in JB as well. No more and darn, the food was real good. You used to say RM600 was nothing to you because it made us happy.

I rememeber when I was extremely young. I kept watching 古惑仔/super violent gangster cantonese movies with you all the time. I used to think/hope that you were mafia gang leader of some kind. Because in such movies, they usually treat their daughters like precious gems.

Till today, my report book only has mii's signature. The 'Father's signature' line is still left blank. How long has it been?

I used to count the amount of 'KNN !! ' you say into the phone. And made you smoke outside the other house because I really hated cigarette smell and when you quitted, I was so elated. Sorry but .. just to let you know. I learnt 'CB face' from you. Remember one of your workers decided to skip his whole M.O.M procedures and landed you in deep shit? I still remember Uncle Ah Tee, your trusty right hand man (or is it left?) and your secretaries. Your long term workers and your drivers ..

I used to go to your Sembawang office to look at the little birds and stray animals you keep.

The times I see you sums up to less than 6 .. Wao. 'Cause I'm very swa-ku. I just see what Dad's normally do with their daughters on TV. I recently saw the Family.sg commercial and I was wondering if my dad bought me shoes before. Umm, no. Not that I am exactly bothered because I can buy my own heels.

I have only shopped/walked with you alone once. Once. If my memory didn't fail me. I think we were shopping overseas at Burberry Prorsum (we were in slippers and shorts), you were looking at suits and ties. I saw a cute skirt but I didn't buy it because the price tag was just way too overwhelming although you insisted that I should get it . I think that was it. We went fishing together 2 times. Umm that's why I used to and still like fishing.

Some people have dads and god-dads, and please, I'm not talking about those you meet in school and randomly pick any older ahbeng to be your gan-daddy or whatever the kns. Cool beans.

Sometimes, just sometimes. I wished that I have a real dad. Someone who'd put food on the table, ask how my school went, tell me what boys I shouldn't be hanging out with, telling me that I mean the world to him and such. Isn't that what all dads do. I don't like empty talk, yes, my dad can text me stuff to encourage/send e-mails and such but .. it's so .. technology-ish. I can't even find a word to describe it. I also want someone to stop the fight when a quarrel erupts at home, even if it's just a grunt or a "不要吵!!", I also happy leh. I'm not asking for a lot. Just to stick to the people you love .. that's all what? Is that a lot?

Why do you keep saying that you are broke when we can find out what you have? Oh btw, we found quite a lot of your stuff through the lawyers, hur hur? Your shares are making monies and .. I srsly don't think I'm spending a lot. You should see how mii and I uesd to shop at KL, I think you'll go crazy. Then again, you know. Because I collect paper bags and you asked why I had so much paper bags and I just blatantly told you that this is the amount of things I buy.

Nevermind. It'll all be over soon and I'll be hating you again (as usual). *Shrugs*
This is just me, I can't change it.
I do hope that my mindset changes in the future. Really.

Labels: emo femo nemo, family, heartfelt