Today I feel so horribly lonely because I chose to head down to RP alone. I needed to have a feel of how it was like to travel alone, go to a new school alone, get out of the school alone, find a particular place in the compound alone and all that jazz. I;m going to rant about Poly stuff and if you think it's irksome, just fuck off. (am not directing this to anyone in particular, get this straight). 

On second thoughts, I wouldn't say it was horrible, feeling horribly lonely is probably just the drama queen in me talking. Spoke to Dr. Chris Woo for a little while and I guess it didn't really change much of my stereotypical mindset with regards to RP. RP, deny it as much as you want, many of you (including myself) think that RP is a horrible place to be in. Comparing it's Cut Off Points (COP) with the 4 other reputable and established schools, RP is last in every single possible way. 

Sure I didn't get into NP, sure I know tonnes more about NP compared to RP. Heck I know where are the vending machines located at NP and I don't even know how to get to RP. I took a freaking cab from Woodlands Interchange because I read Nick's reply wrongly. I swore and crossed my heart I will never study in RP but towards the end... I knew after getting a D7 for Mathematics, I'm not going to get into a reputable Polytechnic. 

It's like getting an A2 for Chinese, B3 for English and F&N and B4 for Humanities and Sciences and at the end of everything, I felt that it was all redundant.  Redundant, useless, practically worthless and everything else in between... 

I guess I just need to hope that I will grow to like RP, albeit having 99% of my friends and acquaintances to be studying and pursuing their diplomas at NP. I need to find a way out, somehow. 

I've been told that "RP sucks", "RP is damn slack", "RP's diploma certificate is not recognized" etc etc. I said, "RP is ITE without the uniform". At the end of the day, I'm going to just say, I'm doing this for myself. I probably learnt my lesson and would never say that "this school sucks". Any school in fact, be it RP or some other random school that everyone else stereotypes.

I hope RP is not slack at all. I cannot imagine having slacking lessons and slacking my way through a year. I cannot stand slacking after half a year. I've been slacking for so long, if I continue to slack, I would probably turn into goo. 

RP in the morning tomorrow, need to go fill up some forms and stuff... 30 minutes bus ride, shall bring a copy or two of Nat Geo and not stare into blank space and realizing after 15 minutes into the journey, I'm tearing. 

因为我没事了，也该是时候长大。

ShawnChee, 别气馁，一起加油努力。  

9:39:00 PM