History Of Lovers - Iron and Wine & Calexico

I've came to a cross junction where every car seems like it's driving towards the wrong direction. I assume some cars are going to crash soon and there's probably nothing much I can do. Hmm, it's the time when I start wondering what I'm doing, what I should be doing and what can be done. Am I making the right move? Or did I just close my eyes and entered in the course code without thinking twice. Rational?

I can't wait for school to start, for reasons besides anticipating what the course has in store for me. Sure I like languages but I don't see me excelling in it, unless I want to, of course, you'd say. I want to get out of this place, it's getting infuriating when you're blamed for things you didn't even partake in.

Spoke to a newfound stranger today and he said,

so i ve come to a conclusion that as long as u re not at the end of the road, u ll never enjoy the travelling part.
somewhere along the way, there ll be just something u hate

+2. Figured I should start to accept that instant gratification isn't that....gratifying anymore. I should take things slow and work my way up. I secretly blame microwave ovens but that isn't really the point.

Gone are the times where I can be excused and forgiven without a single bat of the eyelid. My actions are taken seriously and it affects the future. Gone are the times where I can be like Kyra (my employers little daughter) smiling like she really meant it because her remote controlled car knocked into Dale which woke him up from his sleep. Gone are the times when things were less complicating, phony and doused with the fake shit.

Seems like all the hurdles are placed too closely to one another. It's possible to overcome them but it will take time.....

A very long time.

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